Stupid Stress

I'm so sick of being stressed.

When I was in Australia, I was never stressed! I mean, yeah, sure, I guess when I was taking my half yearly and yearly exams I was stressed but that never lasted for more than an hour! The stress I'm feeling now is...ridiculous.

All my friends are at school, having fun, enjoying being a teenager but I'm stuck with making good grades, doing extra curricular activities, service learning hours and studying for the SAT's.

I'm no superwoman.

I need my time of rest, my time to do whatever I want.

My parents say that they understand me and what I want but all they care about is that I get into a good college. Sure, a good college will be a lifetime of benefits for me and I agree that I should be studying for the SAT's.

But have they ever stopped to consider that maybe, just maybe, I'm old enough to make my own decisions?! I know when I have to study, what I have to study for.

So if they just SHUT THE HELL up for one BRIEF SECOND than maybe, just maybe, they'll see the side of me actually studying.

No one studies willingly after their parents have non-stop talked to them about them being worried, making them studying, giving them a huge stack of SAT prep books and then confiscate their laptop and phone.

Facebook...or should I say, my laptop is the only thing that keeps me sane every single day I return home after school. It's my life line. And now they're taking it away from me?

Sorry, unless you want me to perish, NOT A GOOD IDEA.

Half an hour of lunch isn't enough for me every day Mum, Dad.

LEARN TO SEE MY POINT OF VIEW PLEASE.

I'm sick of being stressed. And do you know what the most stupid thing about today is? I want to CRY. I WANT TO FU*KING CRY. But nothing.

Not one drop.

Probably because I had cried so much this weekend that I have no more tears left. But for once, I wish I could cry. Because when the tears come out, it makes my life suddenly a whole lot easier and brighter.

I'm so tired...everyday of every second and there will never be anyone that will tell me that their there for me and will watch out for me when I fall down, asleep.

Why isn't there a person like that...?

I'm straying off topic.

I hate stress.

It's the worst thing in the world.

Who agrees with me?

The Fun of Sleeping @ A Friend's House

I'm pretty sure I'm not the only teenager that's ever slept over a friend's house. But I might be one of those few teenagers that don't sleep over at a friend's house often enough because I'm so Asian and my parents are strict.

Still, I finally experienced a normal teenage thing last Friday and honestly, one of the best memories of my life probably.

It's been filed under "Most Wonderful Memory".

I did so many things that Friday night that honestly, makes the whole experience so much better.

I got to my friend's house at about 4 after a shower. I totally forgot to bring my hair straightener (which makes my hair look horrendous), my tooth brush and some other things I forgot. Got to say, not the best start to the fun.

And then I tried to study.

Remind me next time that studying while at a friend's house is NOT a good thing WHAT SO EVER! You've been warned!

I was supposed to write a rough draft of an essay for English class. I only managed the Introduction. AND I had it all written on a shape-up sheet but it didn't work out. So there goes the first hour of the word "fun".

2nd hour was wasted on Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone. Not that it isn't a good movie or anything! Just that since my friend and I was SO tired that we couldn't even get past a fifth of the film without trying to stay awake. We were THAT tired the previous night that we couldn't stand watching something we watched over and over again as a child. So we just skipped.

We were originally supposed to watch Water for Elephants and Friends with Benefits.

Didn't work out.

Friends with Benefits weren't out on DVD yet so my friend's father had to rent something different. Sadly, when my friend gave their dad the list of movies to rent, my friend's sister said it was a movie with 'sex'. When my friend told me at school I just burst out laughing like crazy!

So then my friend's father borrowed another movie: Crazy, Stupid Love. Omgosh though, when my friend's father gave me the DVD and was explaining it, he said it was a "no sex movie"! I literally had to hold back my laughter so bad! Funniest thing EVER!

So we watched Water For Elephants first but not before dinner and playing some games...? Some reason, I just cannot remember what we did between W 4 E and Dinner. We definitely played a game of some sort...BUT! I remember making popcorn.

So my parents bought a jug of popcorn and I took some to my friends house. I knew how my Uncle cooked it (or thought I knew) so I told my friend to cook it the same way. BIG MISTAKE! It had disaster written all over it but I didn't even realise before it was too late! IT ALL GOT BURNT! And now I still feel the massive guilt for ruining the popcorn and making a fool of myself in front of my friend's parents. SHOCK HORROR!

But when we were done, we had so much food! Because, in the middle, we somehow managed to make a Nutella sandwich which we completely forgot about until the popcorn was done. It was like a whole meal in front of us after we were done with the food making!

After, we started Water for Elephants.

GREAT MOVIE! Reese Witherspoon and Robert Pattison are good actors/actresses! Although I got to say, since I know that Reese is like 30 and has kids and Robert is only what? 21+ or something? It was awkward when I was watching the kiss scene! So yeah.

And! Get this! My friend let me paint their nails! THE BIGGEST HIGHLIGHT OF EVERYTHING! It was the BEST! I finally realised how FUN it was to paint someone else's nails! I should've left it on my friend's nails ><

I am SO doing it again!

[Gotta go buy more nail polish colours!]

And after we started Crazy, Stupid Love but omgosh, it was unbearable! So we decided to just watch Harry Potter 7 PT. 2.

It was so funny because both of us kept on nodding off to sleep and we had to wake each other up...or I guess I woke my friend up more than the other way around! They kept on trying to wake themselves up by sitting up...didn't work!

So when the scene got up to Draco's mum checking if Harry is alive or not, I just told my friend to close the DVD player and go to sleep. IT WAS 4 IN THE MORNING! And honestly, we even left the lights on because we were THAT tired!

I think I woke up at like 6 later because my friend's father was getting up to work and after that, between 9.15 I woke up periodically.

Did I forget to mention how we took photos and played jenga before Harry Potter? Woops! Well, we took hella photos! And Jenga's always fun <3

So, first sleepover ever as a teen and I am SO doing it again!

My friend are I are weird!

I've only know him (yeah, it's a dude ;p) for 2 weeks but we're just that close that I can go stay at his house without being embarassed nor awkward. Hmm...interesting ~

And the photo's we took was so funny. Because right after they were posted, people started assuming that we were dating. Talk about response!

Now, we made a bet. But shhhh...it's a secret~

<3